thinking about you

okay now i'm stuck on another radiohead song. i just played "thinking about you" about 50 times. it gets better and better.

i liked writing to ok computer so much, now i want to write to another album. i'm thinking of the bends. just thinking . . . . for now. gotta finish this one first, and i'm still trying to get to 50,000 words for the nano project and i'm up to 43,000 and something. i should be able to reach the goal by the time this long weekend is over.

this is what fascinates me the most - how to write emotion in fiction. what i most want to do is impossible. what i most want to do is to write fiction that moves a person in the same way music does. this is completely impossible. nothing can move the soul like music can. it's ethereal, it's here and gone, there is nothing to grasp onto, but it moves through the body and fills you up and takes over. and then it's gone. there's no way fiction can do that, but still - i like to try to write moving emotional scenes that aren't just crap. don't know if i'm successful.